On the verge

Happy Monday! I’m fightin' sleep right now ‘cause I know once I go to sleep it’ll be time for me to get up and drive out to Fairfax to that crappy ass, stressful place. I’m a Williams though; I’ll make it work. I try to think of it this way, people endure some crazy stuff before they are catapulted to greatness. So, I was sitting, watching TV and thinking about the conversation my friend and I were having about me trying out modeling again. I was tellin’ him that I had the opportunity a long while ago to model. It was something serious. I was going to sign under John Casablancas. I was in High School and I was asked to make a choice. Finish HS or model. Those of you who know me, you know what I chose. School. Not that I regret my choice because I now have two degrees: my advanced Diploma and memories galore from High School and my BA in Communication from my beloved GMU. Now, as I look at where I am and consider where I can go I wonder, what’s next? There are a lot of things that I want to do with myself and things I want to experience, modeling being one of those. I’ll admit I have issues with image, you wouldn’t think it, but I can be quite the perfectionist when it comes to how I look. I don’t know if you want to call it vanity or self-consciousness. Honestly, I think it’s a bit of both. For me, modeling isn’t just so I can look pretty and go places (of course that’s wonderful), but it’s about growth and not having regrets. Who wants to say that they wasted their potential? I've been blessed with a lot of it, sometimes I lack the follow-thru 'cause I talk myself out of it. Always helps to have friends who are in my corner even when I don't know they are there (you know who you are). In addition to the modeling I’d been talkin’ about making a list of things that I want to do or learn how to do; a bucket list of sorts. Can I just tell ya’ll that I get excited just thinkin’ about the kind of opportunities a list like this can bring, the people I’ll meet and the times I’ll have. Whooo! Anyway, here are a few of the items:

1)Learn how to make beats. I love music. I’ve played instruments for years and if I can be on the other end of that, make my own music, OMG!
2)Go to a professional NBA and/or NFL game (Super Bowl would be awesome, maybe I'll find my husband there, haha!)
3)Pick up my camera and start taking and developing photos again.

And the ultimate, dun dun dunnnn dunnnnn…

4)Become a celebrity event planner!!! How awesome would that be? You guys already know I live for creating things and organizing stuff. Wow, I would love to wake up to my very own business every morning. What a blessing that would be.

Anyway, I’m rambling and I need to take my hype butt to sleep lol. I’m on the verge of making that move ya’ll…give ya girl a few months, by my 25th bday (March) I’ll be somewhere livin' a dream. I’m destined for it. I feel it in my spirit! Pray that God gives me the strength and courage to go after it. Let’s do work!

Experience redefined

So, I after reading one of my friends' post I've decided to take a step and do something that I had been thinkin' of doin for a while...start writing again. My thinkin' behind this is that if I get my thoughts out that I will be able to visualize them and learn what it is that I've been feeling and searchin' for and; put them into action. I am putting myself under observation in a sense. This past year has been an experience. I'm changin' in every sense of the word. It's donned on me that I'm about to be 25 years old and I feel like there are things that I've set out to do that I hadn't been following through or putting enough effort toward figuring them out. There's only so much reflecting you can do, ya know? My focus is on career and future. My spirit is restless and, as each day passes, I become more and more anxious. As nice as it would be to have someone to call my own, that hasn't happened. While I played a major role in that by removing myself from the public for almost a year, I've also been having trouble finding that person that holds my interest, that I feel comfortable with and that I know won't take advantage of me. While I'm willing to compromise, I've found that my standards are extremely high. It surprises me sometimes. I'll like someone, but will only let them advance so far. I guess it's my way of seeing if they plan on sticking around. I don't mean to be difficult, but I guess some things have happened that I haven't properly addressed with myself that won't allow me to just throw myself in. At the same time I've recently realized that I have a really big, sturdy wall up that, although I say I'm open minded and ready for the challenge, isn't going to come down at my command. Career-wise I've been at a job that, while it's a job and I'm grateful, I don't want to be at. I'm afraid that I'm going to get stuck there somehow and everything that I'm destined for is going to go to waste. I know that I have more potential stored up in me than what I am putting to use right now. I just need an outlet of sorts. I know I shouldn't put it out into the universe as often as I do, but that's how I feel. You ever heard of the flight or fight mechanism? Well I'm in flight mode, but something is keepin' me here. Fear? I won't lie, it's def. a part of it. What if I can't cut it? Although I've left my house plenty of times, maybe I haven't gone far enough to where I really have to rely on myself to make it work...no crutches. Perhaps I need to do something drastic, not dangerous, just drastic. I see so much more for myself than what I've got right now, no idea where to start, but I do know one thing...it's time to jump!

Shopping Around for Grad

These are the Schools that's have made the cut (so far) Wake Forest University, Trinity Washington University, George Mason University, Villanova University, Northeastern University, Boston University, North Carolina State University, Georgia State University, and Georgia Tech University. I NEED SOME FEEDBACK LOL. What do you guys think?

Back for More

I know it's been a minute since I've written, but ya girl is back. I've been really busy. If you don't know yet I am developing a dream C.R.A.V.E. Entertainment, a promotion and event planning company based in the DMV area. It's gaining much momentum which is no surprise to me cause that's what happens when you put in the work. I currently do promotions for a DC Diva and Mason student Yolanda "Venise" Champion. She's an R&B artist who can sing her lil tail off. Also doing local events for Mason in addition to Eight other clubs/lounges in DC. For someone working majorly by herself I'm doing well huh? Thanks! What's next for Rachael?? Developing a student org called C.R.A.V.E Success which is meant to create a space where up and coming artists can hone their talents and network among others of the same aspiration. It's also meant to open up venues that would normally be unavailable to developing artists. On a personal note, if you didn't know... I like doing pageants so I will be going for Miss DC USA!!! Wish me luck!

Welcome me back

Life has been extra busy as of late...the end of the summer semester, moving into my apartment, dc nightlife stuff, gettin ready to apply for grad school...phew! I was tired, but now I'm back so here we go.

C.R.A.V.E. Entertainment and XKlusive Ent have recently acquired a new venue, Layla Lounge and will be hosting, in conjunction with MassMovement, our VERY FIRST event THIS THURSDAY 8/20 from 10P-2A. Make sure you're there:

Layla Lounge
501 MORSE ST NE
Washington, DC
idealmindsonline.com/flash/satflash.html

Here's the link to the event: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=155692060168

I have a problem...

Now I don't know if you would call this a problem, after all everyone has their vice; for some people it's alcohol, others sex, but for me....it's sneakers. I have always had a special place in my heart for sneakers, but as of late it seems as tho that place has expanded. My drug of choice, you ask? Nike Mid/Hightop Blazers...take a look.












F.Y.I. I will picking these up from Champs on Weds!



You can't tell me they aren't sexy! The first step to fixing a problem is admitting it...DON'T JUDGE ME!!

I have an apartment now!

"Candi" and I have accomplished a tremendous goal today, 7/3/09, WE HAVE OUR FIRST APARTMENT!! Do not try to invite yourselves to my house, invites are only extended to the dearly beloved and my parents...Congrats to us!